Story of Us (Teenage Story)

 hi, so my new post! i adapted from taylor swift song 'Story of Us'. I think this gonna happen to us as teens. no matter it's a good or bad for our memory at the end. But this is relate to us. mostly.......

one MEMORY..........
Actually, every teen has a crush. So do I. I started to like a boy, he’s my senior in high. He’s tall, football player, active in an organisation, easy going, kind of good boy. He’s a perfect look in mine. Wether he has many negative act, such as he doesn’t want to meet me in every crowd situation or he’s very busy with all his activities.

But.. well yahh, we known each other since we met in school hall for graduated party for 12th grader. i wanted to join the show. He hit me in the middle of the way.. oughhh, my cola was spilled in my uniform. Such a bad day. I started to grump while looking down. And you kept say your apologize. But when i saw your green eyes, i felt like.... he’s beautiful. I mean..... i quite freezing. I stammered while saying, “i’m okay” and suddenly left him with running fast. My heart’s beating. And following day, he sent me a message, “i’m so sorry in the hall, yesterday. Once. –willy.” Oh my... he texted me just conveying unimportant thing to me. Huuhhhh... made my heart beating faster!!!! 

Monday morning, i went to library. And i didn’t expect that you sitting in a bench alone. So i walked in, used to find a spot that next to you but not got caught on you. I reacted so weird, looking up for a moment to see you for a while. But you looked so didn’t care at all tough we texting every night. There’s so many things of you that i wanted to know and so many walls who avoid that i wanted to break. It’s hard. So shame. Very latent. I knew, we’re keeping our hidden relationship of public. I didn’t know why. But i think that’s best to stay away from “blaming of people” or even “gossips for us”.

The next day in school.
Do you get me nerveously at time when i see you? i’m staying pulling my clothes tough it’s fine and not looking messy. I was read a book then put it back in the bookcase, tooke another one and doing the same. Absent mindedly. Losing my mind. It just because you’re next to me and i see you there. But sadly, you just staying cool, trying to avoid my stares and it’s driving me crazy.

At time, I was thinking and asking to myself....

“What happen with us?” 

“Are we falling in love or something else?” 

“are our relationship just between Senior-Junior?” 

“But why we keep texting every night and my heart keeps beating faster when i see you!!” 

“why we pretending don’t know each other while in school?” 

“why we’re not spend our time together in canteen?” 

“why we’re not reading many book together in library?”

My mind’s screaming inside and felt like explode inside. I knew it’s unuseful. But i couldn’t found the reason why. This was nothing. I’d tell you “i miss you” but i don’t know how. Even i’ve never heard silence quite this loud. Tough we just 5 metres apart. 

In a class
I was tought what we did just looking like a contest. We acts careless to stay cool without express our feeling too much. Just hiding it inside our deepest heart. it’s not fair, not cool even painful. I liked it better you were on my side. But i don’t know must to do. 

I was tought we;re on a battle. In a battleground. You and me. Tou win the battle just with silence. Actually, i don’t want do this. But my mind resist to do it. And your strange attitude affect me too. I keep wondering. My mind always blowing. But i really hope you’ll say you’d rather ;ove than figth. And i want our story not ending faster because our acts.

Another day....
We met up again in the library. Everyone’s standing to find their books. So did us. We met up in the middle way, in the alley of library. But we still keep quiet. Just passed him away without looking each other. Whereas we got a contact from far way. It’s like“i’m standing alone in a crowded room and we’re not speaking.” Dude!!! I wa dying to know, was it killing you like it’s killing me!! It’s like a twist of fate and we’re going down.
I might say, we must over this one, forget him?? Or our story would be a tragedy soon.

END.

The point.....
you might keep wondering what's the end of this relation?? I said "nothing" i just so realized getting trap between upset or not think this is very matter for me further. If he has meant to be for me, i'm sure he'd back and act like "i'm into you and just for you. But if it's not, i'd make him just a little part of heart and it's not too important to hold.. no offense but i know you can catch a glimpse of meaning of it.